I still remember that late morning in the kitchen floor with Nala and Toby.  I was overwhelmed with gratitude and peace for having you in my life.  I didn't realize until that moment how stressed I had been  the prior months prior leading to that moment due to finances and provision.  But after a email and a deposit to my account I knew that your hand had provided for my every need. Even after receiving a word of encouragement and a promise a few months prior I hadn't fully come to the understanding of what you were wanting to accomplish in my life.  I am still trying to figure it out and although they are moments I stray I am rerouted back to you.  My faith, trust and understanding of what lies ahead depends on which journey I am to embark.  It's easy to live life with out care or relationship with God.  It is a choice of will and that was giving freely by you for us to chose.  Most of my life I had wavered and sat at the crossroad trailing off the road less traveled and jumping into the highway of hell.  Life has had its fair share of goodness and bad moments but in the thick of it all you have always been there.  You have pulled me out of despaired moments, healed wounds of brokenness and allowed me to find a way to forgive those that took advantage and abused me.  It was a healing process and one that forgiveness allowed me to truly be free from the victim mentally.  Have there been times I question and get angry over a past unpleasant situation most defiantly but I have also learned that I am no longer in that moment in time.  I am not in that situation and I am not the same person.  I am stronger, more resilient and have found strength to overcome.  I am a warrior, a voice of understanding, and what lies ahead in my future is a pillar of hope for a brighter tomorrow.  It was in the silence, the struggle and the searching I found you.  When I reflect on it all there was never a moment where you were never present.  Sometimes we question why uncomfortable situation occur and what role you played.  It wasn't until I read Coming Down the Mountain that I understood.  Freewill has its perks and it also has its destructive tendency where innocent people get hurt. Some get so damaged that they seem to feel as if the circumstance has left them beyond repair and with out hope.  But until we realize who you are and where you stand can we heal.  Your word says "He heals the wounds of every shattered heart".