My Dear Friend

 

My dear friend I can see you clearly walking into the kingdom courts of heaven.  Jesus is waiting for you with arms wide open.  All the pain, struggle of this world is left behind, and you truly can know rejoice with him in heaven.  Its us left behind that deal with the sadness but the one thing I have learned if you have a relationship with God its much easier to bear.  I am grateful today because I got to see your family, friends and acquaintances that got to truly know you.  You were someone who was able to bring a smile, give a hug and offer prayer. It is our faith and desire to share our stories that through Christ we were able to fully understand that we were no longer victims but victors. I believe that during the moments leading to your departure healing was being released.  Its never easy to fully understands the ways of God and why things happen as they do.  But I do know that when our time comes it is because he is ready to call us home.  I have spent these nights binge on Netflix, online dating and day sleep just to past that time.  I woke up asking God for direction and I have yet to see where the next chapter of my life begins.  I found my self angry and really could not comprehend the disappointment that I felt toward people.  The lack of understanding based on the opinion of others due to false information or a bad first impression.  We judge when we should just be as open and forgiving as Christ was.  He sat among the sinners and yet did not sin.  He judges not and that is because he is the ultimate judge.  He sacrificed and forgave us our sins.  It is his love the set us free, yet we sit in our homes in our mind passing judgment because we carry an offense.  Today I release those offense and ask for healing.  Not only healing for my self but for those who find themselves offend and on the defense.  I used to pride myself that I was strong and that I did not cry.  But what it really was that I was holding on to things when I should have just let them go.  There is nothing more evident in my life that allowing my self to be authentic, cry it out and get back up is the cycle of dealing with life’s blows.  Today, my friend I rejoice that you are home with our Abba Father.