Thursday, June 17, 2021

Into the Gray

So I have decided to let my grays overtake my hair and its been a challenge to say the least.  Especially when you come across individuals who simply point out the obvious.  At what point did I ask for your opinion or do you think I didn't see my reflection in the mirror.  I am learning to embrace aging and by choosing not to dye my hair to met your standards or others doesn't mean I let myself go.  I'd admit growing it out doesn't look good just the way undone touch ups to processed hair does.  But none the less it's my head of hair and my choice on how I want to look until it all grows out.  So it brings me to this point of unwelcomed opinions or comments in which I was highly guilty of in the past.  I had no filter and often said what I thought with out really processing how it would effect the other person.  Being at home this past year has allowed me to reflect on me.  The things I love, the things I hate and the things I needed to do in order to change me.  I can honestly say that this process isn't easy but it was needed.  A lot has changed about me and how I view others.  You begin to see what truly matters. One of the main things I realized was that my emotional well being needed a lot of attention.  I needed to get perspective to my mental health and wellbeing.  It truly does play a big role in your over all health.  I didn't realized how stressed my body was until the very thing causing the stress was address, resolved or no longer of importance.  I learned not to give my attention to things out of my control and trust God in the process of it all.  I slept a lot and allowed my body to rest.  I read, I studied and I reflected on the things I needed to.  I am still in the process of getting my health in order but removing toxic elements is key to my success.  So not giving a dam about someone's unwelcomed opinion is my choice for peace in mine.